Togetherness with the Right People

This week was one of those times when I felt like all the introverting in the world wasn’t going to be enough to fill me back up. The move, school, work…everything was taking, and I could not find a way to recharge. I ended up crying in my van as I hid from the cold while the gas pump was chugging along. “God, I don’t know what to do. I need You to fill me up. I just feel so empty.”

Life is so amazing right now. Please don’t read this as I am struggling in general. Just feeling perpetually behind. But prayer is always a good idea.

As much as I felt like I needed time alone, God knew that I needed togetherness with the right people. Time spent with family in the last 24 hours has totally recharged my batteries. The right people know how to cut the small talk and get to the heart of things. It’s okay to be straight with people and say, “I’m angry/tired/frustrated/sad…even mean!” Last night I spent some time getting my meanness out, that is, telling my mom the frustrations of the last few weeks. It’s such a relief to give those negatives feelings a voice and then release them.

If you’re not feeling great about life, please open up to someone you trust, and be real. Vulnerability is scary, but you won’t regret it.

Goals for February 2015

I’m a person of many words thought and written, but far fewer spoken. That’s a reflection of the mess inside my brain. I get way overwhelmed when I look at “the big picture,” but I love creating and accomplishing the tiny tidbits that lead to the larger goal.

I made a chart for myself (In Excel, because I’m a lover of spreadsheets #nerdalert). It serves to break down my bigger, ultimate goals (column headers) into more tangible, doable tasks (bullet points). You can download a Printable Goals Chart if you want to try it out. It’s not fancy, but it gets the job done. Maybe I’ll upgrade it someday when I don’t have so much else going on!

Example Goals Chart

I usually print it out and hand write the bullet points, but this way was quicker, so let’s just pretend, okay? 🙂 You can print a new one daily, or do the same one for the whole month. Either way, I think it’s helpful to break it down. Those big goals aren’t so daunting that way!


I did a few posts last year with monthly goals, but they were cumbersome and overworked. I think I’m going to take a stab at something simpler.

February 2015 Goals:

1. Finish reading Acts, and read through Romans

2. Plan and go on a good date night with Mr. Dummel

3. Practice Josiah’s memory verses with him

4. Bring a weekly meal to an elderly couple at our church

5. Look through and organize home decorations, and get rid of anything we don’t intend to use

6. Make fluoride free toothpaste for Josiah (I made this one for myself, and it’s great! I believe the baking soda is what made Josiah turn his nose up. I may just edit that out and see what he thinks)

7. Finish front door monogram for my kindred spirit and sister-in-law, Leah.

Here’s ours nearly completed (I love the creative process and pictures of works in process):

Monogram Unfinished (1)

I loved making the little fabric rosettes. This tutorial was excellent. Here’s one of Leah’s:

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When I asked her the color scheme she wanted and then sent her a picture of the fabric options I already had in my stash to match, I think she got just as excited as I do when I’m crafting:

Monogram Unfinished (2)This picture doesn’t do the colors justice. They are just so pretty.

So what are your goals for February? I’d love to read them!

 

Go on and Stare at a Wall

It can’t be a coincidence that today my good friend, Danielle, over at Monday Morning Mom, posted that she was planning to pare down her Facebook friends’ list and spend less time online. She and I are “kindred spirits” (Anne of Green Gables, anyone?). We’re definitely on the same page on this one. Earlier today, I was also thinking that limiting screen time altogether might be just what the doctor ordered.

Being introverted and spending the majority of my time around people is just plain exhausting. After working from 8 to 5 on weekdays, I fill my evenings with quality time with Dustin and Josiah. Although my family time is what I work and live for, it also takes energy. In the evenings, and at sporadic times throughout the day, I have been finding myself online more and more. Whether it’s reading the latest news, scanning social media, or streaming some sort of mindless video, this so called “alone time” is filled with thoughts from SO MANY other people.

Sometimes I just need to sit and stare at a wall.

Wall

I need to listen to what my spirit is asking me, and that is for some down time; some peace and quiet that doesn’t add anymore ideas, nor take anymore energy from my brain. I need time to process and re-energize, but when I settle for screen time, I’m adding a whole other element of mental chaos.

Even if you aren’t introverted like Danielle and me, there is still a need to catch your breath mentally. And that means you need to stop running, at least for a little bit…So go on and stare at a wall.

June

June 2014 is here. We are living in the future. I mean, weren’t we supposed to be driving flying cars by now? Seriously, the passage of time astounds me.

The weather is beautiful, and we are looking forward to a good month. This month we will celebrate with the Dummel family, as the oldest of the grandchildren is now 21 years old. I remember the first time I met Blake. He was barely in middle school. He was such a sweet kid, and he has grown into a man of character, not to mention his incredible skills in the world of automotives. We have so enjoyed watching him grow up and find his calling. Happy Birthday, Blake!

In June, I want more…

1. More Bible reading and prayer.
One of my #30Before30 goals is to read through the entire Bible with great intention. I want to pay greater attention to the details, as I learn more about God and what He wants for His kingdom. Right now I’m in Luke, as I read through the Gospels in reverse order. I’m amazed all over again at the man that Jesus was, and the LORD that He is.
My prayer life is weak. It almost always has been, I’m sad to admit. As I’ve struggled with communication in all of my relationships, I don’t talk to God enough.

2. More yoga.
I really love yoga, though you wouldn’t know it by how little I’ve done it. I need to strengthen my back and my core, as I have been having a lot more pain this year…not to mention the pudgy midsection I earned through stress eating this year. Oy vey!

3. More sunshine.
Josiah and I love to be in nature, and I want to share as much time outdoors together as possible.

In June, I want less…

1. Less jealously.
That one is hard to admit, but I really have to fight that sin. Although I am so thankful for my life and where God has brought us, sometimes I lose sight of what He’s doing in MY life, and begin to envy what He’s doing in someone elses. There are a lot of people out there who are living adventures with the LORD that I desire…maybe if I take my eyes off of them, I will be able to seek my Father more fervently, as He leads me along in His kingdom work. Father, forgive me.

2. Less processed foods/refined sugars/gluten.
This one is way harder for me than it should be. I KNOW that man made foods make me look and feel terrible, but I continue to partake. I want to live a better, fuller life, and that means kicking chemical laden, man-altered foods to the gutter where they belong.

3. Less television.
We haven’t had cable for a long time, but there are still shows available to watch online. I probably watch less television than the average American, but that comparison does not satisfy! I want to spend my time doing things I care about, and television tends to grab my attention away from the activities that I truly want to pursue.

In June…

I’m reading Love & Respect, written by Dr. Emerson Eggerichs. There are a LOT of books out there on marriage, and I avoided this one for the longest time. I have a aversion to things that get popular…but this one is highly regarded for a reason. If you haven’t read it, you should. No joke.

I’m listening to all sorts of Christian music. I’ll admit, I don’t always listen to Christian tunes (GASP!), but right now, I can’t get enough. So much positivity. So much grace. Like a breath of fresh air after the long winter.

I’m in food love with frozen berries with plain greek yogurt, as well as greek style hummus and fresh veggies. So simple, but so yummy!

What do you want more or less of in June? What is the food love of your month? Let’s make it a good month!

How I Handle Things as a “Grown Up”

As a teen/young adult, I was super serious. My friends called me “Mom” way more times than I should say. I mean, not that being a mom is uncool (I am one now, and I think I’m pretty fly at it), but they usually meant I was overprotective and domestic…Translation: Not fun.

Something about the craziness that has been my life for the last ten years has definitely helped me take myself, and life, a whole lot less serious. I got to thinking about this today when everyone at work was melting down about the state audit we’re going through, and my response was to call the auditor the “Tax Gangsta” who would “bust a cap if people don’t pay their taxes”…yes, I said that to his face. Admittedly not my proudest moment.

My other instinct was to tap dance on my desk to distract and cheer up my grumbly coworkers. I filtered that out and took a few walks around the building. I mean, I’m more fun now, but I still try to be somewhat professional at work. Somewhat.

Jess from New Girl is a kindred spirit. I’ve never related more to a fictional character in terms of awkwardness and spunk. This video came to mind more than once today…this is how I handle things as an adult.

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This is the face I make when people at work are super grumpy and won’t join me in singing. Or appreciate my auditor jokes.

Seriously, though, I don’t miss the stress that comes from taking life too seriously. Jesus has set me free. I don’t have to stress or carry the weight of the world anymore. His yoke is easy and His burden is light (Matthew 11:30). That makes dancing a lot easier 🙂

New Favorite Song

This may come as a shock, but I’m pretty sure no one feels brave during a marital separation. I know I don’t. I feel tired and worn. But I’m riding on the strength of the LORD and trying to forge on to a better life. I guess that does make me brave.

One of my dearest friends, a kindred spirit, sent me this song. It’s a new favorite. Gonna let it be my anthem while I ride this thing out…

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